Hello to you!
I am missing you so!
I am missing you so!
I hope that you had a wonderful Christmas and are enjoying this time.
I have been busy with the kids and just trying to catch up on some things around the house, no major changes though. :)
I can't believe that this year is almost over, it seems to have come and gone in a blink of an eye and I feel like I have missed so much.
As if lately I have been in a huge funk, not sure why because I have so many wonderful things going on but there is just this constant tug at my heart that is yearning for something. I don't feel creative, I don't feel motivated, it is like I am just getting through each day the best I can.
Now, it could be this time of year, it could be the fact that I am not working right now and feel a bit lost, or the fact that the kids are older and involved in way more things, which is awesome but it is almost like I want to slap myself in the face and wake-up from this feeling and get my butt going, be happy, have fun, enjoy life.
I am the type of person who's mind never shuts off, as I am sure that some of you have as well, and I get all these ideas in my head and I want to do everything NOW! Not tomorrow, not in a month or a year but NOW! This has been a constant struggle since my heart surgery. I am also somewhat OCD and a perfectionist. By that I am mean I see things, think I can do it without practicing, it doesn't turn out, I throw my little tantrum and pity party and then dwell on it.
NOT GOOD, let me tell you!
NOT GOOD, let me tell you!
There are some projects around the house that I would like to do this winter and I also picked up my paint brushes again and would love to learn how to paint again. I loved art growing up but since children I put the brushes down and over time, some things have seeped out of this brain. Remember what I said earlier about perfectionist and not getting it right the first time? Yeah, I am so on that path already with this BUT I really want to do this so I keep at it day by day when I have time.
So why am I rambling on and on?
Well this year for my New Years resolution I want to be able to win the battles that I struggle with internally, within myself. I guess better myself and my attitude one step at a time. I know that is kind of a general resolution and maybe not so much a resolution but a need for myself and others around me, sometimes I can make life a tad unpleasant when I get in my "moods" :)
Well this year for my New Years resolution I want to be able to win the battles that I struggle with internally, within myself. I guess better myself and my attitude one step at a time. I know that is kind of a general resolution and maybe not so much a resolution but a need for myself and others around me, sometimes I can make life a tad unpleasant when I get in my "moods" :)
So, I am determined to see things how they are, see the things that I CAN do, believe in me and trust in myself and God that there is a plan/purpose/moment for me.
I am truly blessed with the things that I have, people that I love and love me and abilities that I have so please don't think that I am whining or complaining, this is more of a stop-and-take-a-look-at-myself-and-who-I-want-to-be kind of thing.
I hope you all have a wonderful New Years and I want to thank you for all your support and friendship over the last year, I am so glad to be a part of this community. :)
Things may start out slow for me in blogland, hubby was scheduled for his back/neck surgery next week so I have much to do before and after.
Hugs to you all!!!!